oh the choices
the last two weeks have been great for a number of reasons, but at the same time very stress inspiring. 

Ive been blessed with the opportunity to do what ever i wanted with my college life with full support from anyone who mattered.  and now im here living this current adulthood experience, which is new; but im willing to do my best with it. 
So, i am at 24 years old with sole ability to choose how i want to spend my next few years without the defined parameters of having school as my main priority.  now, its all about money baby, and my sanity. 

I am currently working 3 part-time jobs which none alone can support my needs, but i dont want all 3.  So here i am trying to figure out how much my time, body, sanity, are really worth.  At the same time, im trying to decided what/if any habitual patterns i may want to augment to help me in the future.   Ive been overly observant of how people get stuck in a rut or some kind of routine that inhibits growth.   I  spent 3 weeks over the holidays with my family seeing how my brother was living (happily, mind you) in an arrangement very similar to our parents.  which isnt bad considering theyve been married for nearly 30 years.  but its really obvious, the similarities.
This is an example of how much stuff ive been studying, and trying to decide what i want to assimilate and what to keep on file.

I believe in the universe giving me shit for a good reason, but doesnt mean i like the test.
Im really tired of juggling too much at once up in the air. Im really good at it.  but its draining after awhile.

Love you all.